Can i remove my own birthmark help me please...?

I went to a laser specialist today with hopes of getting my cafe birthmark removed..I been wanting this since I was 10 and my mom finally said yes (I'm 17) its on my upper thigh and I'm really self conscience in the summer so I wanted to get it removed..and then the DR. Tells me I can't because it'll leave a black scar or a bumpy scar..I didn't really question him bcs I wanted to cry so I just said thanks and left...I can't..I really can't..live with this.... I can't!!! .. I'm thinking of just cutting it out myself..I tried it before wen I was little and I got scared so I stopped but it cut half of it and it worked ..I wanna know if I could get a razr and cut the first layer of the skin and see what happend I rather have a scar dan my birthmark! Ps. My birthmark is small like quarter sized...help me plsssss